The new year is a Water Rabbit. In an odd way I am kind of creatively charged up these days and looking forward to new things. I don't know where this positive energy is coming from, but I will take it! I feel more recovered than this time last year. I think I just have a sinus infection this time. Not Covid+. That's a step up. So, I didn't write about attending the Portrait of a Nation Gala in November 2022. That was a thing I did amid everything else I have been dealing with and- I've been grappling with how to express myself about that event. The whole thing was unbelievably difficult to get through for me. People kept using the word surreal. Surreal I have done. Surreal is my bread and butter. This was- It was a full-on crisis. I could barely regulate my emotions. I felt so much. A lot of it was rage. What place does rage have at a celebration? Where could I safely put that? How I could ignore the feeling that everyone in that room- everyone in that moment h