I don’t know what people think when I tell them I would need drugs to drive a vehicle. Perhaps they have limited definitions and think I am talking about marijuana or perhaps much harder drugs. Perhaps some understand that I mean prescription drugs. Either way no one seems to know how to react. I feel it land wrong in their ears. I am accustomed to living in almost constant states of panic / excitability since even before before puberty. Observing the world that I was brought into, I knew instinctively that no one would or could truly care that I had some kind of difference. I’ve been managing it so long that masking is second-nature. And perhaps that is why my comment seems jarring. People essentially have no idea that I am not a confident, fully functional person. They see the glasses and think I am smart? Some know that I have been a butoh performer, an art model, and I live outside of my native country, so how could I possibly have that kind of mental disorder?! What e...