It's not HIV!

Into June, into insomnia. 

Along with a host of other symptoms that indicate a bacterial infection, I am doing juuust "splendidly."

I have been a year and a half of my life under trash clouds threatening refuse deluges knowing- more or less- that it's because of bacterial infection. As I told one of my brothers recently in a chat, knowing is not half the battle, in this case. 

This brother has also dealt with a testy bacterial infection. His version happened to be tick-borne Lyme. Coincidentally, he's anxious about recent reinfection and is waiting on test results himself.  

Go Team Antibiotic! 

Let's say, just staying upright and communicating coherently is more like half the battle here for me.

I might seem sharp enough, but I'm struggling through like I've had half a tequila bottle. Chewing the glass and all.  

So I fasted and trucked myself off to have seven vials of blood drawn- by seven dwarves and sent to seven underground labs... no wait. no. That fairytale doesn't exist.

The blood samples are being tested and cultured in labs as I type. 

The only test that came back quick was for HIV. I would still be on the floor in shock if that came back positive for the sheer HOW of it all. I had the test done to humor the infectologist. I understand that she just wants to rule out all that she can. And she doesn't know my lifestyle choices after all.  Lifestyle choices. I feel like I am too economically challenged to have (m)any of those. 

No HIV is like the only positive health news I have yet. Well, no. I can say that my depression has lightened up even with the sleep disruptions and the perpetual brain-fog, I am not so deep under these days. 

Previous Brucellosis tests came back negative, but those were rapid tests. Based on how I have been feeling, that can't be accurate. Yet it might be and I am just over reacting to antibodies. Or however that works.. How ever the body doesn't work... 

With everything so inconclusive, the good doctora finally got me the request for a blood culture to be done. That's where they let my blood sit on a shelf and see if it grows any Brucella. (If this is all inaccurate, I'm taking artistic license with my description. Don't come at me.)  It's an like extra special request because labs seem to throw things out as soon as possible. Or so I have read from other people who try to get this test done and their samples are thrown out too soon delaying their chance at being properly diagnosed. (News like this kills me to hear.)

I am also being tested for Bartonella and some type of fungus-

Because I may have been reinfected with something else... Because the Universe loves me soo, so much. And is only conspiring to do me every kind of good!💩

My brother must be a kinder soul than I. He told me he wouldn't wish these things on anyone. 

Well, I am in a different place than my brother. I would wish this on people. I want to SHARE the things that keep me small and slow and so easy for people to step on/pass over. 

These tiny little infections really take you down so many pegs. And I know a few precious creatures out there who could use the take down. I know so many others who need to be shielded from any more such devastations....  

I have such, such fodder for curse material now. Don't cross me. 

If you would like a creative curse written up, lemme know, huh? 

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